Rebecca's Life

90's Kid

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Wed, 07 Nov 2007 17:37:00 +0000

I came across this and sadly it is true. This makes me miss the days of just being able to worry about being a kid.
You're a 90's kid if:

You can finish this [ice ice _ _ _ _ ]

You remember watching:
-Doug
-Ren & Stimpy
-Pinky and the Brain
-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
-Rockos modern Life.
-Gargoyles

You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"

You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin west Philadelphia born and raised . . ."

You remember:
-LEGENDS OF THE HIDDEN TEMPLE!!!
-Step by Step
-Family Matters!!!
-Dinosaurs
-Boy Meets World!!!!
-Wild and Crazy Kids
-Married with Children
-GUTS
-Clarissa Explains it All

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

You remember reading "Goosebumps"

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence . . . not

when everything was settled by:
-rock paper scissors or
-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or
-daddy had a donkey inky binky bonky.
-skunk in the barn yard
-ms. mary mack
-big mac a tea a tea
-Bo bo, say rotten totten...

when cops and robbers was a daily activity.

when we played Hide and go seek until our legs grew numb.

when we used to obey our parents

You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time.

"Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?" was both a game and a TV game show.

Captain Planet. He's a Hero.

You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.

You remember The Original (Big Gray) Game Boy.

You always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny.

You remember watching Home Alone 1, 2 , and 3 . . . and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"

You remember watching:
-The Magic School Bus
-Wishbone
-Reading Rainbow
-and Ghostwriter on PBS

Tu Pac was BOSS

You remember when Yo-Yos were cool.

You remember those Where's Waldo books.

You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gum from that paint bucket.

You remember watching:
-the 1st Batman
-Aladdin
-Ninja Turtles
-ghost busters

You remember Ring Pops.

You remember drinking Surge, and Tang.

If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB!"

When they made the new lunchables so that you could make pizza AND tacos.

You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.

Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them.

You played and/or collected "Pogs" :)

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere.

one word. . . . . . . . Furbies.

You haven't always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet.

You watched the original cartoons of Rugrats, Power Rangers, and Ninja Turtles.

Michael Jordan was a king.

YIKES pencils and erasers were the stuff!

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.

You remember when the new Beanie Babies and Talking Elmo were always sold out

You collected those Beanie Babies.

Carebears

Gak was the coolest stuff invented.

Lambchop's song never ended.

The old dollar bills.

Silver dollars, which were cool to have.

Everyone watched the WB and yelled at people who interrupted them.

You collected all the Troll dolls

If you even know what an original walkman is.

if you still have one.

You remember wanting to sit on the orange Nickelodeon couch.

You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"

You know the Macarena by heart.

"Talk to the hand" . . . enough said

You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

You went to McDonald's to play in the playplace.

You remember playing on merry go rounds at the playground.

Before the MySpace frenzy . . .

Before the Internet & text messaging . . .

Before Sidekicks & iPods . . .

Before MIKE JONES . . .

Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX . . .

Before Spongebob . . .

Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.

When light up sneakers were cool.

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded
stuff on VCRs.

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off of our walkman.

When checking out drawing books and that one book about the rainbow fish from the library was THE cool thing to do.

You had slap bracelets!

You Actually played outside until it was dark!

Way back.

Before we realized all this would eventually disappear.

RIP Grandma

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Thu, 15 Feb 2007 20:37:00 +0000

I just got back from classes and was going through my hard drive and I found this picture. I started to cry right away. I can't believe next to my Grandma's name it will say 1922-2007 and not blank anymore. A year ago we went to see the cemetry that my grandfather was burried. I didn't think it would be less than a year that my Grandma would be there too. This past week has been really hard. I miss her so much. I just hope where-ever she is that she is happy and looking down at my family and being proud of us.

Survery Time

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Thu, 15 Feb 2007 20:26:00 +0000

THIS IS A ONE WORD ANSWER SURVEY.. SO THIS MEANS...

You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.
it's.
not.
easy.

Not as easy as you might think.

1. Where is your mobile phone?
Bed

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Studying

3. Your hair?:
Annoying

4. Your mother?:
Working

5. Your father?:
Working

6. Your favorite thing?:
Family

7. Your dream last night?
My Grandma was still alive

8. Your favorite drink?:
Sherry Temple

9. dream car?
I duno

10. The room you're in:
Dorm

11. Your ex?
Dunno

12. Your fear:
Forgetting My Grandma’s Memory

13. What do you want to be in 10 years:
Happy

14. Who did you hang out with last night:
Eric

15. What you're not:
Angry

16. Muffins?
Blueberry

17. One of your wish list items:
Happiness

UHHH? WHERE'S 18?

19. The last thing you did:
Ate Lunch

20. What are you wearing:
Clothes

21. Your tv:
Toshiba

22. Your pet:
@ Tech

23. Your computer:
Apple

24. Your life:
Busy

25.Your mood?
Tired

26. your home?
Far

27. Your fridge?
Packed

28. Your car?
None

29. Your work?
Alot

30. Your summer:
Busy

31. Your relationship status:
Taken

32.Your favorite color:
Blue

33. Last time you laughed:
Today

Time started: 2:50 p.m.
1] Is there someone who you like at the moment?
Yes

2] Does that someone know that you like them?
Yes

3] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
A WalkToRemember

4] How many times can you honestly say you've been in love...?
A Few

5] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
*shrugs*

6] Do you think that you should put your friends first or your bf/gf?
Both Are Equally Important

7] Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes

8] What do you think about long-distance relationships?
Hard

9] Your thoughts on online relationships?
Hard

1O] Would you rather date someone five years older or five years younger?
Older

11? this is getting stupid and old. stop leaving out a question.

12] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater?"
No

13] How many kids do you want to have?
Two

14] Do you usually fall for the right boy/girl?
I think so

15] What is your favorite color(s)?
Blue

16] What are your views on gay marriage?
Sure

17] Do you believe you truly only love once?
No

18] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died. Would you re-marry?
Maybe

19] At what age did you start noticing the prefered sex?
5

20] Do you think that someone likes you?
Yes

1. Name-- Rebecca
2. Zodiac sign- Pices
3. Eye color -- Blue
4. Favorite color -- Blue
5. Glasses –- Yup
6. Tattoos -- Want One

WHAT HAPPENED TO 9-11????

*HAVE YOU EVER*

12. Cut your own hair?
No

13. Done something you regret?
Yes

14. Skipped school?
Yes

15. Bungee-jumped?
No

16. Punched someone?
Yes

17. Cheated on a test?
Nope

18. Been arrested?
Nope

19. Broken in someone's house?
Yes

20. Been Rejected?
Yes

21. Been to a funeral?
Yes :(

22. Used a lighter?
Yes

23. Been on stage?
Yes

*FAVORITE*
24. Season --
Spring

25. Food --
Italian

26-27????

28. Breakfast --
Pancakes

29. Person --
Eric

30. Book --
Harry Potter

31 TV show--
Gilmore Girls

32. Lake --
Michigan

33 Song --
Amazed

34. Sport to watch on TV --
Dog Show

35. Color --
Blue

37. Name for a son --
Luke

38. Name for a daughter --
Delia

*DO YOU PREFER*
40. Coffee or Cappuccino? -
Niether

41. Long or short relationships? -
Long

42????

43. Scary movies or comedies? -
Comedies

44. Short or long hair on the prefered sex?
Short

45. Fruits or vegetables? -
Both

*FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND*

46. Chainsaw-
Massacere

47. School -
Delhi

48. Cows-
Tubing Them

49. Canada -
The Falls

50. Mouse -
annoying

51????

*IN THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU*

52. Talked on the phone? - Yes
53. Watched a movie? No
54. Cried? - Yes
55. Smoked? - Nope
56. Drank a glass of water? - Yes
57. Used drugs? - Nope
58. Read a book or magazine? - Textbook
59. Watched TV? - Yes
60. Had sex?- Nope
61. Taken a shower? - Yes
62. Taken a picture? - Yes
63. Listened to music? - Yes
64. Told someone you loved them? - Yes
65. Watched a football game on tv? - No
66. Stolen anything? - No

Last Two Wisdom Teeth Removed

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Sun, 07 Jan 2007 21:18:00 +0000

On Friday I got my last two upper wisdom teeth pulled. It was nothing at all but of course some people don't know how to put in an IV cath for there life. So the only pain I am left with is this big black and blue on my arm. Well that is all...

Update

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Mon, 08 May 2006 17:49:00 +0000

I cant believe we are so close to finals already. This year went by so fast it is crazy. Soon it will be the summer and I can't wait for it. Today I finally got back my parasit test and I got a 90% on it just what I wanted so I was pretty happy about that.

WOW.....

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Mon, 17 Apr 2006 15:11:00 +0000

I was really nervous today to go find out what I got on my RATS test that we took before break. I finally got enough guts and went and looked p.s. I got a 91 on it. I was so happy that just takes off like half the stress I have been carying. Well got to go eat ttyl

I Can Do It

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Tue, 28 Mar 2006 00:46:00 +0000

Look at this I can do good. I was so happy highest grade of a practical since Anatomy

Lady

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:31:00 +0000

Yes I did it! I made sure that Lady my favorite rat didnt die. I was going to keep her myself but my parents didnt like that idea. I was going to just let her run free outside but I ran into my friend Amber and she took her. I know I want to keep her and all but this would be a better place for her. Amber is most likely going to give them away to different people but at least my last memory of Lady is trying to give her a longer life. This is her right here last night. I just hope that where ever she is she will be happy and healthy and live a good long life and remember me as her first Mommy.

ARG

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Sat, 18 Mar 2006 16:33:00 +0000

Hey all I haven't updated this thing in a while. This week compelety sucked. I got another 52 on my RATS test. It is so annoying it is like why am I don't so bad when I know all the information before the test. My teacher isn't helping there it is annoying. I got him saying that maybe this is not the major for you it is like what the hell. Besides my stupid RATS lecture I have B's in every class. That has never happened to me before in college it is cool. This RATs class is driving me nuts tho i need it to be able to do my intership that I already have lined up for this summer. If I fail it I have to stay at Delhi for one more year. How great does that look 2 year program and i stayed for four. Oh for anyone who is reading this if you know of anyone that would want a female rat let me know because i have one. I so wish i can keep her but my parents already said no. I really don't want her to be killed next week so if anyone can help that would be great. Well got to go my laptop is dying that is what happens when you haven't charged it in like 3 days because I left the charger in Eric's room. Laterz

I Miss Him

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Sat, 25 Feb 2006 19:47:00 +0000

So I am at home for mid-winter break. I can't believe that we are all most done with this school year it is crazy. I got home last night around 9:00pm. I am happy to be home and to be able to relax but sometimes it is so quiet it is scary. I miss Eric and Amanda picking on each other and the constant sound of Amanda tell Eric to stop bothering her. It is like I am already to go back to school. I miss Eric already it is depressing. I really do miss his corny grin that always puts a smile on my face. I am happy to report that I am going to see him on Friday. So at least I don't have to wait until Sunday. I am so screwed for the summer when it is 2 months not seeing him. Eric is you are reading this I just want to let you know even though I don't show it all the time I do love you...

I Don't Know What To Think

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Mon, 20 Feb 2006 16:29:00 +0000

So this semester has been crazy... I finally dropped down from 18 credits to 15 credits. So this weekend I finally got to relax and hang out with some friends. So Saurabh came over and we all hanged out.. It was really weird hanging out with him. We were hanging out as friends only.. But look in his eyes this is such bullshit he still feels it but why can't he admit he still likes me. It is not like it would make a different because I have Eric but at least he should be honest. Dam 13 more days until I am 20 years old and Eric and me will be dating for 6 months. Hopefully time will go by fast.

Why?

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Sat, 14 Jan 2006 02:10:00 +0000

Why does it feel like life is so short. Last night I was on myspace looking at my friends friends pages and people that i went to high school with. It is weird that half of my friends that i have on myspace are really not my friends. Why does it feel like all my friendships are spilling away from me. This whole break is one big joke. Everyone saying they will get together is the biggest bullshit ever. All what I am to my friends is just a driver nothing else. The only true friend that i have is Lilly. John, Meg, Chris, Petra... Where Are You Guys? I know that you are busy and have a life but don't say you want to hang out with me and never do. Don't pretend that you miss hanging out with me when you don't. Why are you lying to to yourself..
Why am I questioning everything in life all of a sudden it is weird. Why does Saurabh still get under my skin. What does he want from me I just wish I can have all these answers and not have to think about this stuff. I can't wait until I go to back to Delhi and am with Eric because right now that is the only thing I got...

So You Are Still In My Life Why Am I Not Happy

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Fri, 06 Jan 2006 00:24:00 +0000

WOW... i cant believe how long it has been. I think I forogt that I use to keep this thing update. So whats going on nothing that much. Just wanted to make a post with this picture. I got this picture when i got home from break with the caption on here you go. This was on Saurabh's birthday and I decided to be nice and give him a birthday kiss. Why did I do that? No matter how much of an asshole this kid is he still gets to me. It is amazing that he still has that power. When I finally don't want him too. How can i get you out of my life. Why are you still lying to me? So I finally don't care and why does it not even make a difference...

Home For Christmas Break Good Or Bad?

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Sun, 18 Dec 2005 03:12:00 +0000

So I am home for break 5 week YAY! I miss Delhi already it is like great what am I going to do with all this free time. I just can't wait until I go away with my family now that would be fun. I just miss Eric so much it is driving me nuts. I am so use to seeing him all the time and now I am suppose to be okay with not seeing him at all. Sometimes I wish if I blink my eyes the 5 weeks would be over and I would be at school. Well nothing else to say catch you later

RIP Lou

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:16:00 +0000

I just got off the phone with my Mom and she told me that my oldest bird Lou died this afternoon. It is so annoying it is flashing back to all the other animals that I have loved that as passed on. I am happy that my mom told me but it is just showing me how much I miss Sam the Millers old dog so much. This is so depressing Well Time To Go do homework later all.

RIP Lou 3-5-02 to 10-7-05

Why Do I Miss The Good Old Days?

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Tue, 04 Oct 2005 19:01:00 +0000

Okay so I havent updated this thing in a while. Haha College life for the second year is crazy. But I truely miss the memories and the people from last year. It is almost going to be a year since Me and Saurabh started dating why does it feel like it was 5 years ago? Right now I can't even talked to the kid without get mad. Why is that? It is like I don't like him anymore? Is it because Marcus and Kiwi are not here making sure there is peace between us? You think two people can be mature and can be friends. But why is my friendship with him so far out of reach? I really do miss the days when I use to go to the RA office and hang out with him and we had such a fun time as friends nothing more. Why can't I get that back. It is like I havent changed that much for him to hate me. Is it because I am in a relationship and it is not with him. Is he is jelous ? is he mad? why can't he talk to me. Why am I the one that cares and sheds all the tears. Why is it always me ?

Is This Really Happening To Me?

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Mon, 19 Sep 2005 02:21:00 +0000

Okay so I have updated this thing in a while. Alot of stuff is happening consdiering that Melissa and Marcus both have come up the last few weekends. Okay so lets get to the reason why I made this post. I am sitting at my desk not wanting to do my homework seeing my room-mate with her boyfriend and Eric is with me. It is like woah we are getting so old. So I look up and see my On The Line Poster and I get it I have been in past relatioships but why do I feel like such a virgin in this one. It is so weird. So I came across this song and I so get it. It is totally like in On The Line When Kevin Find Her there is chemistry and he has no idea what to do because he doesnt understand why it is happening to him.

I get a feeling I can't explain
Whenever your eyes meet mine
My heart spins in circles
And I lose all space in time
And now that
We're standing face to face
Something tells me it's gonna be okay

And I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever, but baby I'll try
Yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight

I know you've been watching, choosing your moment
But I've been dreaming of that day
No one before you
Has gotten to me this way
And now that
We're standing face to face
There's something that I need to say

And I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever, but baby I'll try
Yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Nothing is certain
This I know
Wherever we're headed
I'm ready to go

I can't promise forever, but baby I'll try
Yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Yes I'm ready to fall
In love tonight
~Joey Fatone - Ready To Fall ~

Why Do You Still Get Under My Skin And Make Me Not Want To Move On Even Though In Reality I Do

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Mon, 12 Sep 2005 00:00:00 +0000

This Is What I Am Feeling Right Now...

How can I just let you walk away,
just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain,
and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me
is against all odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
But to wait for you,
well that's all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now,
'cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take, oh, oho

Just take a look at me now

~Phil Collins- Against All Odds~

Back At Delhi

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Tue, 30 Aug 2005 20:42:00 +0000

Okay so I haven't updated this thing in a while so here it goes. Packing oh what fun considering that I left half the stuff I need at home I am still surpirsed that I remembered myself. Move people into to Delhi was alot of fun. Considering that Saurabh thought I was only lifting a pencil. I jsut love it how he thinks that I can't do anything right. Seeing him for the first time was so weird but I am still proud of myself that I didn't cry. It is so weird not being a freshman anymore. I am praying that this weeks goes by fast because Marcus is coming up on Friday. Last night was a really good night because walking back from dinner I ran into my friend Alex. He went to boot camp in May and finished with it. YAY! I hate running into to people and you are not sure if you got the right person. I am not trusting myself with that because ever since I got here every guy looks like Rob or Marcus. <-- Yes I know I have problems. So I got to hang out with him. Seeing old friends is the best. The funniest part is when he was poking me and tickling me to death. You got to love when that happens. So I leave you with this picture of us yesterday. It is so depressing that he is leaving again on Saturday. I have so many friends doing the military thing. It is like ugh.. It is cool and all but I dont want them to get hurt. Ever since Lilly came back I have been worried about everyone else that is in the military. Well got to run. Got to start the lovely homework.

Ahh Delhi

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Thu, 18 Aug 2005 04:37:00 +0000

I came across this picture on the internet and need to put it with this post. I can't believe this summer is almost over. One more week and I am going to be at school. I can't wait! This year is going to be so great. I can see it already good friends, good classes, and a good old time. I can't wait to move in. Me and Amanda are moving in on Thursday so we can help the freshman move in the next day. I can't wait. Everyone that reads this bring your camera to delhi on Friday the 26 you are going to see Rebecca carying boxes. Well bye for now

Rochester Trip

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Wed, 17 Aug 2005 04:29:00 +0000

Okay this was my second summer going to vist my sister in rochester. This summer was much better than last. The apartment that my sister lives in is really nice. It was really weird to see her living with Ryan but after a day I was use to it. The really funny times was Friday and Saturday evening, because of course that is when we hanged out with Brock. Friday we went to the movies and saw Mr and Mrs Smith with Brock and one of his friends. Aftewards we just went back to Brocks and hanged out. It was alot of fun. Brock got me Smirnoff ice drinks. So I had finished one and got another and was not even half way done with it when Sarah said we were going to leave. So I dranked the whole thing in less than two mintues. The only problem was I was burping all the way home. At that point I wished I was at school because Rob would of been laughing and burping with me. Saturday night we went mini golfing and afterwards I got to play DDR on a hard mat. I was really happy after that. Then we went to get the famous "garabage plate." They were really good they have cheeseburger, hamburger home fires, and macaroni salad all on this plate. It was really good. Ten mintues after you are done with it your stomach feel so full though. I have never felt that stuff before in my whole life it was really good I would so go and get another one. All and all it was a really good trip and I can't wait until Sarah, Ryan, and Brock come up for family day. Here I leave you a lovely picture of the garbage plate.

This Is It

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Thu, 28 Jul 2005 23:49:00 +0000

I Love This Song... Just been thinking about my realtionships with friends mostly with Saurabh. And This is what I came down too. here it is .....

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself
I can't help your fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help your fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

~Papa Roach~ ~Scars~

So Much Stuff Is Bottled Up Inside Me

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Sun, 24 Jul 2005 23:30:00 +0000

So much is going on to much time to think about it. So many emotions are going through my body the last few weeks it is crazy. One moment I can be completly happy then the next very sad. It is crepping me out. It is not like I have a stressful summer so what is causing this ? So what have I been doing to keep myself busy watching Degrassi The Next Generation non-stop. <-- Wow I am such a loser.
I majorly need a vaction just to get out and exit from this little cave I am putting myself into. I don't feel like I connect with anyone anymore. I even really don't have that much fun with my friends as I use too. John came up last weekend and everything went great. I just feel like I screwed everything up. Why do I freak out when he was picking on me we use to always do that. Why does one touch or hug from him drive me crazy all of a sudden. I don't get it at all I feel like I am becoming a different pereson yet again. Did Saurabh hurt me so much at the end of the school year that it made me not even want to look at guys of the fear of getting hurt again?
Then there was this past wednesday when I hanged out with Max, Mike, and Petra. First time I had fun in a long time. But ever since then I can't get Mike out of my head. It just feel like it is the first time in so long that I have forgot my past relationships that got me hurt. I haven't slept at all since then. It is so weird. I feel like the biggest freak. I wanted to do a Kings Park today and see him and figure all this stuff out. He didnt even call or email me back. So yes I was stuck at home for the whole day because today I started taking care of Benji and Daisy. I am happythat I am babysiting Ben And Daisy. I just want to figure all this stuff out. I feel like the fakest person out there and I have no idea why. At least I am going to be busy this week so hopefully time will fly by.

This Week In Review

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Sat, 09 Jul 2005 19:59:00 +0000

This week has gone by so fast. I can't believe it is soon going to be the second week in July. This week was good because Victor came up to New York so I was hanging out with him and friends like every day. You know you have weird friends when they want you to sing and they are recording you at the same time. Yep that is Meg for you so there we are singing to the Little Mermaid and The Lion King. I was having so much fun at the moment I thought life couldn't get any better. We played alot of DDR when I got home by feet had pin and needles. John called me then and I looked at my cell phone and I saw that I had one voice message. So I checked it and it was from Marcus, I was so happy to here from him I miss him like crazy.
On a sad note my grooming job is done with Liz broke her back so they are closing the store down. When I heard that I was so sad Taz one of the owner dogs just stoped barking at me. :( So I only have tech. Liz says she wants me to babysit Amanda one day a week so that will always be good. I think I need to find another job. It was Amanda's birthday yesterday. She is getting so old. Her grandma got her these high heels I almost cried because I still remember the little baby Amanda throwing food at me. It is so scary how much life has changed in the past few years for me. I can't believe that I am already 19 years old.
Last night my Dad had over someone he does business with and his daughter Jade. Somehow Gilmore Girls was talked about in the conversation. And My Mom said that I love that show. So I took Jade to my room and we watched some of them. After they left I realized how much I miss having someone to hang out with at home. Me and Sarah use to do stuff together. We always use to go to Northport and get ices. Maybe that is why I still always do it with Petra. I understand that she had to leave the house and it is part of life but I really do miss her. I can't wait until I get to go up there and she her and Ryan. It would hopefully get my mind off all these problems stirring in my head.

Summer So Far

noreply@blogger.com (Rebecca'sWorld) — Mon, 20 Jun 2005 01:42:00 +0000

I can't believe it is going to be a month tomorrow that I have been home from school for some reason it feels like I have been here for a few weeks. My summer so far is going good. I passed all my classes and am able to come back to Delhi in the fall I was so happy about that. In the very beginning of the summer I went to Michigan to see my cousin for a few days. That was alot of fun. The last night I was there we went to a club. I can't believe I went I am really not a club person but I had alot of fun. The only bad part of the evening/ morning because it was like 2 am was one of my cousins friends got into a fight at the club and his leg got broken. It is weird because I feel like I always have alot of fun when I am not at home. I am so use to being able to do whatever I want listenting to parents telling you what to do when you have been in college for 9 months is always a hard thing to get use to again. The best thing that is happening this summer is I get to go upstate to see my sister and Ryan and I get to work at tech because they finally fired John. I have 25 days of working at tech and I can't wait. This past week I was hanging out with friends alot and it was great. Going to target is always good for me. I have been so busy that I haven't talked to Saurabh in a week. I miss talking to him for some reason. It is like I don't love him like I use to but I still care alittle and I know he does too even though he doesnt want to admit it. He got me hooked on Phil Collins songs it is kinda sad but they are really good.
The most shocking thing might be happening this summer. My family might be getting a dog my mom is up for going to a few places and looking. When I heard that I almost passed out from the shock of it.
Yesterday was Kings Park Day and I went it was alot of fun seeing Max, Melissa, and Danny. Of course Melissa and Max didnt want to be with each other so it mad it harder for me to see everyone. It was Danny's birthday so I was glad that I got to give him a birthday hug. That is really all that is going on in my life right now I need to go I am helping my Mom make Blueberry Pie! Happy Father's Day !